Getting back on track…

My ambition goes in and out of existence.  It has it’s own tides, it’s own work schedule.  I can’t control when I will have it, or when I won’t.  Sure, I said I would start posting EVERY Thursday night.  Yeah, that happened.

But luckily, my tide is turning.  Last night I saw the movie “Kick-Ass,” and it was, well, kick ass!  Yes, I know, very punny.  I am original.  And big surprise here, a comic book movie has helped churn my inner desires to start living life more.  When I saw the main protagonists give a speech in the heat of battle about how people in the world stand by while others get shit on, I realized it is true.  We all “wish” we could do more, but how many of us actually do?  This isn’t a new thought to the world; it isn’t a new epiphany for mankind by any means.  But it hit home for me.  And I want to keep it around for as long as I can (we will see how long this stretch of ambition lasts).

Now, I am not the type to do big, world-turning events.  But I am a very personal kind of guy.  That is why I want to be a teacher.  I want to help bring about positive change in my environment, but with a sort of one person at a time approach.  I am realistic; it is what I do best.  And so I have a mission to start making my friends happier people.  This goal is directed at one individual in particular (you know who you are), but why not aim to help every one of them?  Happiness is something that, generally speaking, comes easy for me.  I am lucky in that I can let shit slide, I don’t get frustrated easily, I have a bad memory so I probably forgot why I was mad about something in the first place.  So I want to take this bundle of happiness and try to live a more constructive life with the people around me.  It can be through simple things.  Complaining less, going with the flow more, offering a helping hand without a heavy sigh.  I don’t have it figured all out yet, I never do, but I think starting with an idea, and speaking it aloud, that it will help me define a new reality for myself.  I am hopeful that it will, at least.

But this personal anagnorisis has nothing to do with the 52 adventures of this year.  Well, not necessarily.  But the newly kindled passion and drive that I am currently feeling makes me want to start posting again.  I have still been going on adventures, I just haven’t been writing about them.  Time to change that.

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